wow. All i’ve been thinking throughout this situation is myself.
What I think about myself. Judging myself. How to make my self look and feel better.
But I wasn’t thinking about the main person I should be thinking about…
God.
I should be thinking about what God sees. What he thinks of me. His love for me.
What God sees is beauty. He sees me as his most prized possession. I need to remind my self that God loves me more than anything in this world and that he would do anything to know me. God doesn’t want me feeling bad about myself. God wants me to worship and rejoice for him in the beauty person he has made me to be!
I am going to try my best to treat my body like a temple for God.
4 things I learned today ~
- Bon Iver is the best music to listen to while studying for finals
- Eating a chicken taco before biking 3 miles is not smart
- vanilla candles are yummy
- stay clear of donuts
I felt God tonight.
Youth Group was amazing. During worship I could literally feeeeel God and felt his love and i can’t even describe. It was the best feeling. I started crying either tears of joy or tears of undeserving love. I keep saying to myself:
‘I dont deserve your love. I don’t deserve it.’
Tonight was just amazing.
I don’t quite understand why I haven’t been talking much in the past week. I’ve starting to find myself in a room full of talk and laughter that would mainly be me, but recently, I’ve just been sitting just with my thoughts. Thinking. Im not quite sure what exactly I’m thinking about, but just, thinking.
Also this past week i’ve found myself walking down the hallways and hear screams of laughter and talk… and it bugs me? i don’t know why. maybe I’m maturing? or maybe its just a general annoying thing? i just don’t know.
I feel like I’m in the process again of finding myself again, which I thought I already have, but I guess things change and events happen, and I’m not gonna be the same person I was a year ago.
I can literally feel the tension in my family right now
